A Home, and freedom from depression, anxiety and low self worth

3 people prophesied that God would move me where he wanted me to be..
I hope this happens, my faith is low, and where I'm staying isn't helping. I have no family to turn to because of being rejected by a dysfunctional family for years and I had to fend for myself.
I nearly gave up life after an abusive relationship and rejection from people I needed as friends.
I have been publicly bullied by some Christians - because I haven't been baptised. I know it's opposition, i get it every time i get near church. So I'm hiding out. I see so few people, it's not healthy.
3 people prophesied that god would move me where he wanted me to be, over the summer.
I really hope this happens, because my faith is so low, and where I'm staying isn't helping; I got told I'm being groomed and it's suppressing and killing me. (I'd class that as being religiously groomed).
It's a Christian house but they won't pray with me until my heart is right with God! I have no family to turn to because of being rejected by a dysfunctional family for years.
I have been uninvited to meetings and publicly (verbally) bullied by some Christians - because I haven't been baptised. I know it's opposition, i get it every time i get near church. So I'm hiding out. I see so few people, it's not healthy.

I've had depression for decades, but more severely over the last 3 yrs, I suffered rejection, sadly from Christians and a relationship, which robbed me of Gods blessings. (I let it happen, but didn't recognise it was abuse).
I lost my home, career, a country where I wanted to live, that God blessed me in etc.
I have sought help in the Uk and found nothing. I am not considered a high risk category, because I've never attempted suicide, but all the other ways of self loathing and self harm are as detrimental, for instance giving up my finances and job, in my opinion, and feeling so worthless, I battle to live.
I have felt hopeless and unable to settle for over three years too.
Anxiety levels completely skyrocketed.
I doubt whether I'm saved, I think it's all head knowledge. I've seen a lot of things so I can't say I'm an atheist! I know God tries to reach me, even though I don't know him intimately. Intimacy scares me, but it's what I need.
I'd really like freedom from all the addictions (cigarettes, food and alcohol). I also feel angry and frustrated, sad and despairing. It's been a huge battle. I have not really found the help and support I need.
I'd appreciate your prayers for direction and freedom and to be where God wants me to be and to have the courage to step out and go wherever is best for me to become whole again. I need life! I want to the person who God intended me to be, not someone who's hiding away in fear, because of what others might say or do to me. I don't want to be influenced by people's opinions - but God's. So in a nutshell I know I need more of a personal relationship with God, and wholeness. I also need to move to where he wants me to be (I have no idea where that is!)
Thank you!
I've had depression for decades, but more severely over the last 3 yrs, after much rejection, sadly from Christians and a relationship, which robbed me of Gods blessings. (I let it happen, but didn't recognise it was abuse).
I lost my home, career, a country where I wanted to live, that God blessed me in etc.
I have sought help in the Uk and found nothing. I am not considered a high risk category, because I've never attempted suicide, but all the other ways of self loathing and self harm are as detrimental, for instance giving up my finances and job, in my opinion.
I have felt hopeless and unable to settle for over three years too.
Anxiety levels completely skyrocketed.
I even doubt whether I'm saved, I think it's all just head knowledge. I've seen a lot of things so I can't say I'm an atheist! I know God tries to reach me, even though I don't know him intimately. Intimacy scares me, but it's what I need.
I'd really like freedom from all the addictions (cigarettes, food and alcohol). I also feel angry and frustrated, sad and despairing. It's been a huge battle. I have not really found the help and support I need. People say I just need God.

I'd appreciate your prayers for direction and freedom and to be where God wants me to be and to have the courage to step out and go wherever is best for me to become whole again. I need life! I want to the person who God intended me to be, not someone who's hiding away in fear, because of what others might say or do to me. I don't want to be influenced by people's opinions - but God's. So in a nutshell I know I need more of a personal relationship with God, and wholeness. I also need to move to where he wants me to be (I have no idea where that is!)
Thank you!
PRAYER TEAM
God please divinely intervene in this situation and render powerless every scheme of the enemy and bring peace over these dear one in Jesus Mighty Name, Amen. God you alone know the root- I pray root it out and let the peace of God that surpaces all understanding be the portion of these dear child of yours in Jesus Name,Amen. Restore, revive, beautify and do something new in Jesus Mighty Name, Amen.

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